Why did they leave me???

In my mind
Remains a question
I asked no one
“Why did they leave me?”

Am I unlucky?
Am I unworthy
Am I a bad omen?
Then why did they?

Didn’t they want me?
Did they leave the world?
I know not what happened
Who can tell me why?

Did God take them away?
Did He punish them?
Did He punish me?
Could you let me know why?

Where did they find me?
Why did they take me?
Did they really want me?
I know they love me.

I have everyone now
I have everything now
But still my mind asks
“Why did they leave me?”

Forever...

I lay on my bed
Listened to the sound
Looked out of the window
And saw heavy rain.

I wished to be outside
Get drenched in the rain
Walk along with him
All night long.

I dreamt of being
Happy like never before
Dancing in the rain
With the love of my life.

He would hold me tight
And never let me go
In this midnight love
We would share the warmth.

How jealous I feel
When I see his care
I know not how to repay
All his love for me.

I wish we were
Immortal beings
And lived like this
Forever and ever.

I don't know...

I sat by the window
On my way back home
Wind blew on my face
Rain drops too.

A lot of thoughts
Flew past my mind
Nothing was clear
All was blurred.

I paused my mind
To think and see
If I was happy with
What I did.

There were a few
I made them smile
Their happy faces
Brought smile to my face.

I asked myself
Is this what I need?
Am I satisfied?
I don’t know if I am...

Walk in the night...

Walk in the night
Beneath the sky
Full of stars
Moon shines bright...

All of a sudden
It pours heavily
It feels so nice
To watch the rain...

I close my eyes
Smile on my face
My hands wide open
To welcome the rain...

Wish you were here
Right beside me
Holding my hand
Walking with me...

Never trust...

Never trust those
Who act very saintly
You know not what they say
When you are away...

If those be our
Very own friends
There stops all
The so called friendship...

If those talk ill
About my dear one
I rather not
Be with them...

If one always around me
Speaks ill of my dear
I would rather be
Silent forever...

Once upon a time...

Once upon a time
You wanted me
You missed me
Like never before…

You spoke to me
Anything and everything
All that was there
In your mind…

We shared each moment
Of joy and sorrow
Without a thought
Open-heartedly…

Every night
We talked and talked
Till the sun rose
And shone on our face…

Days passed by
There was a sudden change
Strange feeling in my heart
This became true later…

You do not have it
That feeling in you
Either to talk to
Or see me even…

You never talk
You never smile
You turn away
When you see me…

All these things
Make me feel
I’m no one to you
Not even a friend…

I would not ask you why
Not because I don’t want to
If you don’t like me so
Why would I even force you…

Whatever happens
Wherever you go
Whenever you want
I’ll be here for you…

I know not if...

I know not if
You be there
When you know
I'm all alone...

I know not if
You still feel
What's in my heart
Which no one else knows...

I know not if
It is right
To wish for you
Again and again...

I know not if
You can see
The sorrow in my tears
Hid by my smiles...

I know not if
You'll like me
Since I know
You like her...

All I know
For you I have
From deep within
Love forever...

While you were away...

While you were away
I was all alone
I wish you were there
Right beside me.

I never felt
So lonely before
With so many people
Around me though.

I wish you had
The way I have
The love for you
From deep within.

I know the fact
Nothing to be expected
The mistake repeats
Even more expectations.

Many a times
I hurt you bad
Drowned in tears
I begged for forgiveness.

I missed your smile
I missed your talks
I missed you
And I still do...

You were there...

You were there
When I wanted someone
You were there
Giving a shoulder to cry on.

You lend your ears
To my joys and sorrows
You lend your eyes
To all my actions.

Quite often I hurt you
Not because I hate you
It was only out of love
Pure love for you.

When you are near
I have no fear
When you are near
My heart is filled with joy.

When you are away
My heart aches
With all the thoughts of
Our good times together.

Wherever you go
With whomever you are
I will treasure you
In my heart forever...

All Alone...

All Alone
Again I'm left
For some reason
No one else knows

It's all my fault
I should have begged
For a wonderful friend
In my life forever

I was very happy
In my world of dreams
I couldn't sleep
Without his thoughts

I am forced to do
That I dislike
Which hurt him bad
And I regret

I tried my best
To get him back
But all my try
Went in vain

Hurt so bad
All he said was
"Stop this talk,
Before I hate you"

It was dark...

It was dark
It was cold
He was there
Right beside me.

We walked along
Streets of love
Close together
Holding hands.

Chilling breeze
Touched my face
I felt the cold
Go right through me.

He saw me shiver
Pulled me close
Held me tight
I felt the warmth.

From nowhere comes
The heavy pour
I loved the drops
Touch my face.

I felt so nice
Like never before
I spread my hands
To welcome the rain.

Right in front
He stood so close
Held his hands
Around me tight.

He held my face
Looked so deep
Into my eyes
With full of love.

Face to Face
Felt the breath
Whispered to me
"I love you dear!"

I felt a spark
Go through my nerves
While we touched
Lip to Lip.

I closed my eyes
Kiss was so sweet
My heart sunk deep
In the sea of love.

All was fine...

All was fine
Until one day
When she found
All was forged.

First denied
But then doubted
She searched again
And found the truth.

She was given
Best of the best
But then realized
Everything was unreal.

Everyone she loved
Family and friends
Did not let her know
None was hers.

No siblings had she
To share or care
None around knew
Her joys or sorrows.

She buried in mind
Her feelings and thoughts
Her heart, it is
A chamber of secrets.

She grew up in a cage
With no one to chatter
Watched peers celebrate
Their freedom to wander.

Her eyes revealed
The moaning heart
Her smile and words
But hid them all.

She lived her life
Adopted though
And still she strives
All alone.